Thursday, December 18, 2008!
HandWritten on; 11:32 PM
okay. so let's just make this story short and clear.
god, i'm still in daze as i read his message. i wasn't aware and well prepared for it. regret filled my mind. i knew that i shouldn't have told him about it but then again, it's quite obvious so he'll eventually know about it in sooner or later. it could be worse if he knew it from some else. but eversince he went away, my feelings towards him changed. like for the fact that everytime i look at our picture, i was like "yuuuuuuck!". i don't know why but i was disgusted by it. seriously. so thank god to that.
and ever since then, i've been thinking about food just to take him off my mind. i've been eating non-stop lately. mairah said "you're just depressed by it". well, i say it's cause of my pms. plus, i've gain weight. my waist is now 29. i'm usually 27. like god damn, how'd i get there?
i wasn't gonna waste my time being emo and munching on ben & jerry's. i went chatting with my friends instead and lucky me, they helped me get through it. prasadi and syatrah helped me the most with all the crappy jokes and that twilight parodies on youtube.
okay. so let's just make this story short and clear.